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Aug. 26th, 2010 12:35 pmLet me just start by saying, FML!
Now, having said that I'm not in the best of moods. Gee like one couldn't tell right? I'll get to this in just a bit.
So Tuesday night I won the Mankato Idol thing that I was performing in! Yes! I! won! over all! I was extremely shocked because I thaught that Flint was going to win. I'd have been happy for him if he had. I believe I turned a million shades of red when the announcement was made. Flint came in second which was pretty cool though. My happiness reguarding this was short lived however. Flint told me that his mother told him that sometimes in competitions like this the winner is chosen out of pity basically. What i mean by this is, Flint has a job and right now I do not. So his mother seems to think that it's entirely possible that the only reason I won was because I have no job and that's why I was given first prize. The first place winner received $100, second place got $50 and third and fourth place received $25 each. So now i have this whole other crappy thing going around in my head, was I chosen for my singing ability or was I only chosen because I don't have a job giving me the bigger amount of money? If I was chosen just because i don't have a job then I don't want the prize money. I don't wish to have won out of pity, I wanted to have won because they thaught I actually had talent. So yeah, i feel horrible about the whole issue now. I will not be competing in the upcoming competition, Mankato's got talent. I want nothing to do with it. Flint's competing however and i wish him lots of luck.
In cat news...
I found a lump on Ozzy's side that's got me a bit worried. The lump isn't on his bone or anything like that, it's under his skin. I had Deborah come to check it out as she is a cat breeder and she would have bene able to tell me whether to take him in or to see what happens with it. Normally I can tell if I should do a vet visit or not but I have never had this happen with any of my other cats and I have been raising cats since I was fourteen. She said that it looks like a fat deposit and I just need to let it go away on it's own. She did also tell me to keep an eye, well a finger on it to see if it gets any bigger. I'm hoping that's all it is and nothing more serious. Ozzy's running and playing still, he's eating and drinking still and he's still got a wet/cold nose that he seems to like to rub against my cheeks. His body tempature seems to be normal too, he doesn't feel any warmer than normal. These are all definite good signs that he's going to be alright. I don't know how I'd cope if i lost him, he's my lifeline at times when I'm feeling like hell. People say that if anything were to happen to him that i could always replace him. Let's see...yes I can get another cat but you can never replace a friend. That's what Ozzy is to me, a best friend. You just can't get a replacement for a best friend, not a true best friend anyhow.
Last night I went to the grocery store and found these new Hot Pockets, sloppy joes. Right now my favorite Hot Pockets are the burger shots, they rule! I'm excited to try the sloppy joes as I love sloppy joes normally. Usually I get the Manwich and make them that way but I figured what the hell, I'll give these a try. So now just waiting for them to cool off a bit so I can see if I will have a new favorite.
I found out that the classes I want to take will start on September 20. My counselor called me to ask if I had taken a WRAT test to see what my math skills were. I can't remember what the letters W R A T starnd for but yes I have taken it. She has to look in my file to make sure it is there, if she can't find it I will have to retake it. I don't want to! Not only does the test check your math skills, but it also checks your memory, spelling, reading and comprehention, and it also decides what you'd be suited for in a job environment. It gives you a list of jobs that you'd be good at as well. Everytime I take one of those tests, they tell me that I need a people job. It says I should find work dealing with people. Some of the jobs it always comes up with are, teaching, working with children, caregiver, reception work or psychology. I have always found that amusing since i have often thaught about being a child psychologist. So, I will start classes hopefully on teh 20 of next month. I can't wait to get started with things.
Well lunch is cool enough to eat it so I'm going to go and do just that before my cat says "mmmmm, food!"
<3<3<3hugs and love<3<3<3 I <3 you all.
The forever sarcastic one,
Vamp Cissy
Now, having said that I'm not in the best of moods. Gee like one couldn't tell right? I'll get to this in just a bit.
So Tuesday night I won the Mankato Idol thing that I was performing in! Yes! I! won! over all! I was extremely shocked because I thaught that Flint was going to win. I'd have been happy for him if he had. I believe I turned a million shades of red when the announcement was made. Flint came in second which was pretty cool though. My happiness reguarding this was short lived however. Flint told me that his mother told him that sometimes in competitions like this the winner is chosen out of pity basically. What i mean by this is, Flint has a job and right now I do not. So his mother seems to think that it's entirely possible that the only reason I won was because I have no job and that's why I was given first prize. The first place winner received $100, second place got $50 and third and fourth place received $25 each. So now i have this whole other crappy thing going around in my head, was I chosen for my singing ability or was I only chosen because I don't have a job giving me the bigger amount of money? If I was chosen just because i don't have a job then I don't want the prize money. I don't wish to have won out of pity, I wanted to have won because they thaught I actually had talent. So yeah, i feel horrible about the whole issue now. I will not be competing in the upcoming competition, Mankato's got talent. I want nothing to do with it. Flint's competing however and i wish him lots of luck.
In cat news...
I found a lump on Ozzy's side that's got me a bit worried. The lump isn't on his bone or anything like that, it's under his skin. I had Deborah come to check it out as she is a cat breeder and she would have bene able to tell me whether to take him in or to see what happens with it. Normally I can tell if I should do a vet visit or not but I have never had this happen with any of my other cats and I have been raising cats since I was fourteen. She said that it looks like a fat deposit and I just need to let it go away on it's own. She did also tell me to keep an eye, well a finger on it to see if it gets any bigger. I'm hoping that's all it is and nothing more serious. Ozzy's running and playing still, he's eating and drinking still and he's still got a wet/cold nose that he seems to like to rub against my cheeks. His body tempature seems to be normal too, he doesn't feel any warmer than normal. These are all definite good signs that he's going to be alright. I don't know how I'd cope if i lost him, he's my lifeline at times when I'm feeling like hell. People say that if anything were to happen to him that i could always replace him. Let's see...yes I can get another cat but you can never replace a friend. That's what Ozzy is to me, a best friend. You just can't get a replacement for a best friend, not a true best friend anyhow.
Last night I went to the grocery store and found these new Hot Pockets, sloppy joes. Right now my favorite Hot Pockets are the burger shots, they rule! I'm excited to try the sloppy joes as I love sloppy joes normally. Usually I get the Manwich and make them that way but I figured what the hell, I'll give these a try. So now just waiting for them to cool off a bit so I can see if I will have a new favorite.
I found out that the classes I want to take will start on September 20. My counselor called me to ask if I had taken a WRAT test to see what my math skills were. I can't remember what the letters W R A T starnd for but yes I have taken it. She has to look in my file to make sure it is there, if she can't find it I will have to retake it. I don't want to! Not only does the test check your math skills, but it also checks your memory, spelling, reading and comprehention, and it also decides what you'd be suited for in a job environment. It gives you a list of jobs that you'd be good at as well. Everytime I take one of those tests, they tell me that I need a people job. It says I should find work dealing with people. Some of the jobs it always comes up with are, teaching, working with children, caregiver, reception work or psychology. I have always found that amusing since i have often thaught about being a child psychologist. So, I will start classes hopefully on teh 20 of next month. I can't wait to get started with things.
Well lunch is cool enough to eat it so I'm going to go and do just that before my cat says "mmmmm, food!"
<3<3<3hugs and love<3<3<3 I <3 you all.
The forever sarcastic one,
Vamp Cissy
