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Ra ra ah ah ah, roma roma ma, ga ga ooh la la...
And that translates to what exactly?
That was the question i asked myself when I first heard that song. Bad Romance by the notorious Lady Gaga. Don't get me wrong, I like the song, in fact I might even go as far as to say it goes on my favorite songs list. It's an interesting song to say the least. Why are you talking about that you might be asking. Well I can't seem to get the song out of my head. Ever since i heard the thing yesterday, I can't seem to make it go away no matter what song i have played since then. I always go back to singing that song in my head. Y'know, I wasn't sure what to think of Lady Gaga when I first heard her. As I kept playing her songs I found that she's not all that bad. I even follow her on twitter. LOL! She's one of those singers that just grows on you.
Last week I talked to Chris three times on the phone. One of the times after we got done talking I ended up cruying. We started talking about how he is no longer happy in his marriage and how for about the past eight months his life has been a living hell. We talked about how He thought I wasn't interested in him any longer and how Alisha helped to put that idea in his head. He figured I no longer wanted to talk to him. If only he had talked to me, if he had just come to me and talked to me I could have told him that his thoughts were unfounded. I know that I have written about this before but I can't help but think about it and be upset about it everytime we talk about it. I have contemplated not talking to him but I can't bring myself to stop. I don't like the crying every time we talk about it but I'd miss him so badly if we didn't talk. He's one of my best friends, one of the most important people in my life. We have tried the no talking thing before and we always go back to talking. This isn't my fault, if only he had come to me, why didn't he just talk to me? I think that's the thing that hurts the most is that he couldn't talk to me, or rather he felt he couldn't for whatever reason. I have never given him any indication that he couldn't come to me when something was bothering him. i hate him for not talking to me. I hate Alisha for helping to put these ideas into his head. He says he wants to officially be with me but I told him he can't for more than one reason. One, he's still married even if he doesn't want to be. The fact still remains that he is and only he can change that. I do not go around breaking up marriages, that's not me. I have even gone as far as to tell him he should try to work it out. He's got Arryanna and Christian to worry about now as well. He says that's no reason to stay with Alisha. I did agree with that one. Two, I don't love him anymore, not like I used to. Yes, I do love him very much so but it's more like a best friend or like he's my brotherly love. Yeah, and i'll just keep telling myself that, maybe it will become truth one day. I really do miss him though.
I can't believe that Janurary is almost over. It seems like it just started yesterday or something. I was really hoping that this year would turn out better than the last but it doesn't seem like it will. Yeah yeah I know, it's only the first month of it but if the start is any indication to how the rest of it is going to be then let me sleep for the rest. I think it's too much to ask that the year be better than last year. I am trying to remain positive but I've got to tell you it's not easy which is weird for me to say because I'm usually a real optimist.
My plans to move to Ohio have been put on hold temporarily. I was supposed to move there at the end of February but that's no longer the case. I will be moving there in July now. I have told my birth mother and she was a bit sad I think but there's nothing I can do about it at the present time. I'm actually sad about it too but I just simply don't have the funds to do so. i need to find someone who is willing to drive a truck there for me. I'd pay all expenses, gas and food and that kind of thing. Right now, I don't have anyone who can do the driving for me. I was going to ask my brother Chris but I could never get a hold of him to ask him. My only way of communication with him was my cell phone and right now it doesn't accept calls. i need to put more minutes on it.
Well tired again so going to save this and try to finish it when I wake up again. Night night darlings.
Ok, I have returned, good morning darlings.
After going back to sleep for a little bit, Ozzy decides that mommy doesn't need to sleep anymore so here i am. I swear, at times I'm so tempted to ship him off to somewhere and at the same time I don't think I could live without him. He's a good kitty for the most part. Ozzy wanted his breakfast and he wasn't going to let me be until he got it. So, the cat has been fed and here I am writing again.
I got this little thing in my e-mail this morning. It looks fun so here you go.
Last name game
Rules: It’s harder than it looks, hit forward, erase my answers, hit enter, and send it on to ten people, including me. Use the following questions. They have to be real places, names, things, nothing made up. Use different answers than the person in front of you.
Well obviously you can't forward or all that jazz so just do the answers if you are so inclined.
1. What is your last name? Poss
2. An animal? Pot-belly pig
3. A boy’s name? Patrick
4. A girl’s name? Patricia
5. An occupation? Pilot
6. A color? Pale Blue
7. Something you wear? Panties
8. A beverage? Pepsi
9. A food? Pizza
10. Something found in the bathroom? Ponytail holders
11. A place? Pennsylvania
12. Reason for being late? Police pulled my driver over.
13. Something you shout? Piss off!
Sorry for that last one but i couldn't come up with anything else at the moment. Ok, no i'm not. hahahaha!
I have started talking to my friend john again. I'm really hoping that things don't happen again to make me end the friendship again. Actually it really wasn't me the last two times. It was that I wanted to be only friends and he couldn't handle that and yeah, it was just a big huge mess. He's a nice guy and i really hope he does find someone to make him happy but i'm not that person. I can't be for soooo many reasons. Reasons which I won't get into at the present time.
Well not sure what else to write about right now so I'm going to go and see if i can find breakfast. Yeah the vampiress needs to feed.
<3<3<3hugs to all<3<3<3
Love,
Cissy
And that translates to what exactly?
That was the question i asked myself when I first heard that song. Bad Romance by the notorious Lady Gaga. Don't get me wrong, I like the song, in fact I might even go as far as to say it goes on my favorite songs list. It's an interesting song to say the least. Why are you talking about that you might be asking. Well I can't seem to get the song out of my head. Ever since i heard the thing yesterday, I can't seem to make it go away no matter what song i have played since then. I always go back to singing that song in my head. Y'know, I wasn't sure what to think of Lady Gaga when I first heard her. As I kept playing her songs I found that she's not all that bad. I even follow her on twitter. LOL! She's one of those singers that just grows on you.
Last week I talked to Chris three times on the phone. One of the times after we got done talking I ended up cruying. We started talking about how he is no longer happy in his marriage and how for about the past eight months his life has been a living hell. We talked about how He thought I wasn't interested in him any longer and how Alisha helped to put that idea in his head. He figured I no longer wanted to talk to him. If only he had talked to me, if he had just come to me and talked to me I could have told him that his thoughts were unfounded. I know that I have written about this before but I can't help but think about it and be upset about it everytime we talk about it. I have contemplated not talking to him but I can't bring myself to stop. I don't like the crying every time we talk about it but I'd miss him so badly if we didn't talk. He's one of my best friends, one of the most important people in my life. We have tried the no talking thing before and we always go back to talking. This isn't my fault, if only he had come to me, why didn't he just talk to me? I think that's the thing that hurts the most is that he couldn't talk to me, or rather he felt he couldn't for whatever reason. I have never given him any indication that he couldn't come to me when something was bothering him. i hate him for not talking to me. I hate Alisha for helping to put these ideas into his head. He says he wants to officially be with me but I told him he can't for more than one reason. One, he's still married even if he doesn't want to be. The fact still remains that he is and only he can change that. I do not go around breaking up marriages, that's not me. I have even gone as far as to tell him he should try to work it out. He's got Arryanna and Christian to worry about now as well. He says that's no reason to stay with Alisha. I did agree with that one. Two, I don't love him anymore, not like I used to. Yes, I do love him very much so but it's more like a best friend or like he's my brotherly love. Yeah, and i'll just keep telling myself that, maybe it will become truth one day. I really do miss him though.
I can't believe that Janurary is almost over. It seems like it just started yesterday or something. I was really hoping that this year would turn out better than the last but it doesn't seem like it will. Yeah yeah I know, it's only the first month of it but if the start is any indication to how the rest of it is going to be then let me sleep for the rest. I think it's too much to ask that the year be better than last year. I am trying to remain positive but I've got to tell you it's not easy which is weird for me to say because I'm usually a real optimist.
My plans to move to Ohio have been put on hold temporarily. I was supposed to move there at the end of February but that's no longer the case. I will be moving there in July now. I have told my birth mother and she was a bit sad I think but there's nothing I can do about it at the present time. I'm actually sad about it too but I just simply don't have the funds to do so. i need to find someone who is willing to drive a truck there for me. I'd pay all expenses, gas and food and that kind of thing. Right now, I don't have anyone who can do the driving for me. I was going to ask my brother Chris but I could never get a hold of him to ask him. My only way of communication with him was my cell phone and right now it doesn't accept calls. i need to put more minutes on it.
Well tired again so going to save this and try to finish it when I wake up again. Night night darlings.
Ok, I have returned, good morning darlings.
After going back to sleep for a little bit, Ozzy decides that mommy doesn't need to sleep anymore so here i am. I swear, at times I'm so tempted to ship him off to somewhere and at the same time I don't think I could live without him. He's a good kitty for the most part. Ozzy wanted his breakfast and he wasn't going to let me be until he got it. So, the cat has been fed and here I am writing again.
I got this little thing in my e-mail this morning. It looks fun so here you go.
Last name game
Rules: It’s harder than it looks, hit forward, erase my answers, hit enter, and send it on to ten people, including me. Use the following questions. They have to be real places, names, things, nothing made up. Use different answers than the person in front of you.
Well obviously you can't forward or all that jazz so just do the answers if you are so inclined.
1. What is your last name? Poss
2. An animal? Pot-belly pig
3. A boy’s name? Patrick
4. A girl’s name? Patricia
5. An occupation? Pilot
6. A color? Pale Blue
7. Something you wear? Panties
8. A beverage? Pepsi
9. A food? Pizza
10. Something found in the bathroom? Ponytail holders
11. A place? Pennsylvania
12. Reason for being late? Police pulled my driver over.
13. Something you shout? Piss off!
Sorry for that last one but i couldn't come up with anything else at the moment. Ok, no i'm not. hahahaha!
I have started talking to my friend john again. I'm really hoping that things don't happen again to make me end the friendship again. Actually it really wasn't me the last two times. It was that I wanted to be only friends and he couldn't handle that and yeah, it was just a big huge mess. He's a nice guy and i really hope he does find someone to make him happy but i'm not that person. I can't be for soooo many reasons. Reasons which I won't get into at the present time.
Well not sure what else to write about right now so I'm going to go and see if i can find breakfast. Yeah the vampiress needs to feed.
<3<3<3hugs to all<3<3<3
Love,
Cissy
